We’ve lost baby “B”. I’ve never been very good with words and they are certainly escaping me now. It’s with a heavy heart I type this post tonight but we want to keep friends and family up to date with how the pregnancy is progressing.
The day started out good enough. Kayla and I had been looking forward to our ultrasound appointment all morning. Around lunch time we made our way to the hospital and checked in ahead of schedule. Baby “A’s” ultrasound went great. He was moving all around and he appeared to be healthy and happy. “A’s” entire examination took a good 25-30 minutes. I’m not sure why we didn’t pick up on it, but baby “B’s” examination only took a few moments before the nurse was taking off her gloves and walking out of the room, telling us the doctor would be in momentarily. When I asked her how all the measurements were looking, she hesitated and then simply repeated that the doctor would go over all of that with us shortly. He came in a few minutes later followed by three other nurses. That’s when I got a feeling something wasn’t right. The doctor fired up the ultrasound machine and viewed both babies together, side by side. Baby “A” didn’t stop moving while Baby “B” was curled up motionless. Kayla, still not yet sensing anything was wrong, smiled and asked the Doctor if the babies could feel each other yet. The Doctor, with a solemn look on his face only shook his head, no. Before anyone could ask another question, the Doctor remarked “I have some bad news…” and he began to explain that baby “B” was very swollen and appeared to have suffered from an infant version of congestive heart failure. The cause is still unknown. It could be anything from a heart defect, not uncommon in twins, to a virus. Kayla gave blood to rule out the latter. Baby “A” appears to be doing fine and will be monitored once a week.
We’re of course heartbroken by the news we’ve received and are still in shock. We’ve been looking forward to welcoming “The Boys” for what seems like forever now and the thought of only having one baby in the womb is still foreign to us. We’re half way through the pregnancy and are praying that Baby “A” continues to stay healthy. We thank all of our family and friends for their support, your love and prayers are what lifts us up and keeps us going. It will take time, but we will heal from our loss and hopefully become stronger from it. And while our Crew may have gotten smaller, our hearts will always hold a space for our precious Baby “B.”
You all are in my prayers and I hope you know how much you are loved. We may never know why ‘baby b’ had a problem and didn’t survive, but I will always believe that he is in heaven with Jesus. One day we will meet him and then maybe get the answers to the question of ‘why’. In this world there are so many unknowns. I pray that God will hold you close and comfort you. Karen
We think of you all every day. Our hearts are hurting for you. I know words cannot express the pain we feel for you all. Our Love and Thoughts are with you every day. I am glad you have a strong family to hang on to. Love Always, Joannie & Jim
“and He shall wipe away every tear from their eyes; and there shall no longer be any death; there shall no longer be any mourning, or crying, or pain; the first things have passed away” -Revelations 21:4 – This I know is what we ALL look forward to in our time of grief as no words I say can actually heal, but my prayer is for you and your family to receive the grace you need from God to carry you through these painful times.
Hi Ted and Kayla. I was just thinking of you two and decided to peek in and catch up. Adalyn is so beautiful! I am sorry to hear of your loss. Sending love and light your way.